Ay, to die, and go we know not where

Last Saturday night I had people over and we went to the club. As usual.

This time, Chel and Chris came too. These two spent the entire night acting married. Chris broke up with Kate recently and even though he didn't say it, everyone knew it was because he liked Chels. Chels and Kate were best friends, and so were Chris and Nich, Chels' ex boyfriend.

God, it sounds so "Days of Our Lives."

I knew Kate was devastated by this, but having not been good friends with her, I didn't really know what to do or say. Chels, Chris, Kate and Nich were part of my year 11 group, a group I left behind when I changed schools. But now I feel so bad. I feel like it's my fault that Kate is even more upset now, because I had them over Saturday night.

I know it's not my fault, but I still feel that Kate is accusing me. I don't know what to do. Chels is coming over for the weekend 'cause her mum won't let her home from college. Her mum hates what she and Chris have done. They won't even admit they like each other, or that they're together. Chris will probably come over again. I can't cope with this.

Damnit, why do I feel so guilty?!

Anna is moving out tomorrow. This is definite, it is finished, it is over. Tomorrow I will be living on my ownsome for the first time ever.

Well... that's if you don't count Pinnochio. But mama says that fish do not count as people. Luckily P. wasn't around to hear that opinion. He might only be a goldfish, but P. is very smart. He always eats his fish food.

Everyone seems to be worried about my getting lonely, but they don't understand that I won't be. Between work and uni, I have very few days that are wholly without commitment. Em and Ditzy are around four night sout of seven, and we're always going out places. I think I will enjoy having the house to myself.

Good points of living alone:
-Spare Bedroom!
-No-one leaving the lights on, the tv/iron/oven on, or the door unlocked when you aren't home
-No dirty washing everywhere
-Less washing up, and no-one not doing said washing up
-NO MOULDY CUPS IN THE BEDROOM ANYMORE!

I'm going to put my desk and computer in the spare room on the weekend and move the loung in . The friends coming over can help with that. And my Nonna is giving me a singe bed for when people sleep over.

Oh, I can't wait. At all.

Went out with Mama last Tuesday, as she promised. We were going to see a movie, but I'd forgotten my card and we couldn't talk in the movies, so we just went shopping and for coffee. I love this woman and her family. No-one has ever done so much for me without asking for anything in return, or for less reason. She offered me her old lounge, since Anna is taking the new one when she moves out.

Her husband brought the lunge over on Saturday, and then spent Saturday AND Sunday morning cleaning up my backyard and mowing the lawn for me. I feel so bad now, like I owe them, but Mama says I don't and not to worry.

Am going to get Centrelink payments and live in the unit by myself once Anna leaves. Can't wait really - she's planning to move out and she's still making mess! There are dirty plates and cups all over the house, her uni crap is scattered on the floor... argh, she makes me so mad!

Am going to put my desk and computer and a single bed into her room once she leaves, make a study / spare room sort of thing. Once I've AIRED the room, because it smells funny...

Some idiot came through drive thru yesterday, and he was waiting on his roll, so I gave him explicit instructions on WHERE he was to park, so that I could bring it out when it was ready. He disappeared, and came back 20 mins later - "Is my roll ready?" When I gave it to him, he handed back his te chicken nugets and said "these are cold now, can I have new ones?" I got them, and opened the old packet - there were four left! Out of ten!

The point of this story is if you're stupid enough to park in the wrong spot, and not eat the food you'e given, don't complain to me. Also, don't eat most of your food and want replacements. I don't care.

Anna is moving back in with her parents. She can't handle the responsibility and doesn't have the money to pay the bills anymore.

What's irritating is that she rang her parents and my Dad who I don't speak to and told them I was cracking up. Both financially, which is a lie, and emotionally, which is no-one else's business unless I want them to know.

So she's made herself look like a martyr and me like a witch. So hate her right now. She's given me two weeks to find a housemate and then she's leaving.

MAY have already found one. But spent half of last night and most of today crying, 40 minutes on the phone to Mama who had a migraine and was still trying to help me, saying it wasn't my fault and not to cry. Skipped uni to go out with Em cause I felt like absolute shit. We drov and walked along the beach and I feel much better now. Mama is taking me out tomorrow to cheer me up.

Got out of bed today and realised that I had a fair bit off economics homework that needed to be typed, double spaced, printed off, and handed in at 11am today. Jumped on the computer, googled a few answers, scoured the textbooks for some others, and printed off my size 12, typed, double spaced answers with a feeling of pride. Full marks, here I come.

Walked out into the kitchen with the vague idea of making breakfast, or at least a cup of tea, but was met by a horrific pile of washing up. Correction: A horrific pile of old, crusty washing up. While I'd been gallivanting around teaching Em how to drive, avoiding the rats at Soldiers Beach, going for coffee at ten pm and spending quality time watching bad chick flicks with Mama and my sisters, Anna had been left to fend for herself. This fending included elaborate meals, lots of coffee and juice, and a bit of chocolate cake. What it didn't include was washing up, cleaning the kitchen, or anything reomtely like housework.

Mama says not to clean up after her and she'll come to her senses eventually. Problem is, am a neat freak and Anna knows if she leaves it long enough, will give up and clean the house.

Hmmm... business law lecture. YAY! (not.)